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College is a waste of time he says
Talkin' about how he wished he never went
His passion in that statement was like he was trying to repent...
Repent his sins for a decision that he felt was a mistake.
At the age of 19 he decided to make this choice
To take this "opportunity" because it's not a "job"
Who am I to say shit about his decisions
His intuitions that lead to his condition... of positivity?
He's got a mouth piece that keeps woofin
I continue to nod my head w/ his statements at this point
"Stray away from the negativity and run this joint!!"
"Put your head down and move forward to your goal!!"
...I aint no fool
"You too can be just like me..."
...I will never be like you

So I explain to him about the possibility
Of me going abroad to teach and be free
Free from the confines
And the baggage it entails
Free to be Kind
And eat spicy pickled cabbage for my meal

Are you sure?!?!

Weren't you just talkin about being positive?
Here you go speakin bout opportunities
Teaching abroad is a goal for me

But you'll be away from your family.

You speak truth.
But what is that worth if they support me
Support my decision
My motivation
To gain even more knowledge... So I dropped this line
"Life without knowledge, is Death in disguise"
Do you agree?

Sitting with a stunned look on his face
His expression as if i whispered "check mate"
He just wants me to stay and hustle
Muddle these words of "hey girl, you smellin kinda troubled???"
Nah, im cool.
I'm not cool doing this 'marketing' gig
I'd rather chill w/ the homies at a shindigg

But you didn't go to college to be a teacher.

I went to college to grow.
The saying of how what we learn in college is
80% outside of the classroom
and 20% in... I'm a walking example.
I know I have interacted with many different kinds of people
I know I have influenced, and have been influenced.
I stand before you as a positively, optimistic, maximizing havin, chillin w/ the homies, doing work, being a boss like influenced individual.

But thank you for this reassurance.
A reminder of why I have my goals
A reminder of my every day values
A reminder to stay motivated.

To go from shop to shop
This conversation became nothing more than a pit stop.