Japan bound... stayin' positive

So I got the call on Friday morning. AEON had given me what they call a conditional offer. Now what that means is that I am pretty much on their waiting list, hoping that something will open up during the time I want to leave.

"We do want to hire you and for you to become a part of our company, we just don't have any positions open for when you want to leave..."

So, I'm on their waiting list. Waiting for a position to open up sometime between mid-August and December. I asked what the chances were for a position to open up, and he said that there obviously aren't any guarantees, but with the way things work, something should turn up. So yea, if all goes to plan and there becomes an opening during that time, I will be on my way to Japan at the end of the year... quite exciting, yea??

It still hasn't quite sunk yet. I go about my day and forget about it completely until someone brings it up in conversation, or if I see anything Japanese. For me, I feel it's the fact I am on that waiting list. Until I hear back from them giving me the final offer, I won't really have that full 100% feeling. Don't get me wrong though. I'm so very positive in thinking that there will be something that will open up.  Although I feel I am very optimisitic, I do have a pessimistic point of view on things at times. I feel that i'm right in the middle when it comes to these things, leaning more towards being optimistic. I do understand that shit happens and things don't always work out how you want them to be. But, quite honestly, if all else fails and AEON does not have an opening, I will just have to apply to another company. The fact that I got the call back from AEON telling me that they want to hire me, gives me so much motivation to the fact that everything will come together in the end... it always does.  

The whole process concerning AEON has got me thinking a lot lately, especially about how I live my life. I remember a time when I would criticize so many things. I had that "hater" mentality. Yea, i've still got it, but in no way am I remotely close to how I used to be. Someone once told me that in order to live a happier life, we must be glad/happy about the small things that come our way (i.e. a sunny day, having a productive day, spending time with friends/family, etc.). I never paid too much attention to that saying til a couple of weeks ago. The day of my personal interview with AEON was a happy day. I was happy simply because I was productive, it was sunny outside, and I was spending time with good friends. I didn't think too much about how the interview went, my own issues i'm dealing with back here at home, etc. I feel like i'm preaching to the choir by saying all of this.  I feel like we've all been told these things, and yet have never actually practiced this lifestyle. Why is it that people get soooo mad over shit that doesn't concern them, or if it does, why do they get so angry and hold grudges, or dwell in that moment? I understand that it is a part of a persons emotional well being to be able to express their thoughts and feelings. But, if those certain feelings make one become so ill-tempered, why do we tend to dwell in that state of mind for such a long period of time? Obviously it is easier said than done, but who says it can't be done? I'm sure there are certain rebuttles concerning this thought, but I can't think of one. I'm sitting here thinking of any type of situation where it would be adequate for someone to dwell in such anger, sadness, or bitterness for a long time. Basically what i'm trying to say is... really try to not dwell so much in negative thoughts/feelings/etc for too long. Because if you do, it will not only affect you, but those around you. In turn, take the necessary time to express your feelings, and move on. Saying "move on" I feel is such a harsh term when talking about situations where one would be sad. Switch those thoughts into something positive. I can assure you, that you will live a more pleasant life. I have. Trust me when I say I have my own fair share of issues and problems that I deal with. When I do think about that shit at times, it quickly brings me down and discourages me from doing a lot of things. It's simply amazing the power of positivity when its implemented into ones life...

A new realization i've had, is that being home is preparing me for my next step in life. I am learning so many more new things about myself. What I can and can not do. What I want to do. How I live my life. And plenty of other things. I continue to grow, despite not being around those who have helped me mature these past five years. I continue to use all of you for support and motivation.

Thank you Hannah and Heather. If it wasn't for you two ladies planting that seed of going to Japan in my mind, it would have never happened. Simply said, thanks for being a homie...